Looking For Sugar Daddy
The title looking for sugar daddy reminded me of when I was divorced and had become so frustrated with being alone and wondering why I couldn’t Buy a date. It seemed at the time that guys were staying away from me in droves. That phrase came to my mind when I thought maybe my standards are way too high. Maybe I’m thinking of myself more highly than I ought to think. Perhaps just an older gentleman with Big money who probably wouldn’t require as much maintenance as a young dude is what I need. I thought maybe I should start looking for sugar daddy. It is amazing how asinine your thinking can become when you are out there in the world, not in your Bible everyday and drinkin’ whiskey at the same time.
Today I think about it and wonder why in the world, (that was the problem I had gone back into the world) would I have wanted to be looking for sugar daddy? Well, one thing my Mama used to say to me all the time is, “If you don’t know where you’re going, you’ll wind up somewhere else.” Truer words have never been spoken. When I started pondering on looking for an older man who could meet my needs, the Spirit of the Lord spoke to me and said, “You don’t want a sugar daddy because most older dudes are right at the age where they are now reaping what they have sown in their young lives and you will get in on the reaping part, good and bad. Many old sugar daddies have sown their wild oats in their young years and have never repented of the sins they’ve committed, the people they hurt, the children they mistreated, the things they stole and the lies they told. Then here I come looking for sugar daddy and would have reaped the full impact with him of what that joker did 40 years ago. Whew…. Did that wake me up!
But that is what I love about Jesus Christ, He said, “I will never leave you or forsake you and lo I’m with you always even unto the end of the world.” (Matthew 28:20) So the Holy Spirit spoke to me even in my ignorant and confused state of mind and told me you don’t want to take that route. While looking for a man who would ease my pain, I found out that the reason no men were paying any attention to me is because God was hiding me out. He was saving me until He could get the Best Man, His Man to me. That man was and is First name Ronnie last name Calloway. Ronnie and I were divorced for 7 years and neither of us married other people and that’s a miracle. I thank God for His Grace and Mercy that endures forever.